Attempted

I shakingly stood on the top of a chair,

Shocked, with not a breath of air,

As I slowly faded away from life,

I thought of my friends, my kids, my wife,

As my vision grew darker and darker,

The pain was just an indefinite marker,

When it faded to completly black,

There was nothing left that I lack,

I should be happy, away from life,

but the pain was too large to strife,

I wish I never did it, I wish I stayed afloat,

But now I'm in darkness, with no power to gloat,

I wish what I heard was real, I wish it existed,

But that was not, and I was forever omitted.